This is more like a journal entry than a blog post. Every now and again I get the urge to write out how I'm feeling. Sometimes its a particular train of thought, other times its just random. Today is random. I been moved back home for about 4 years now, I'm on my second job and its the one I think Imma hold on too for awhile. I'm getting more notoriety for the work I do now back home than I ever have and that makes me feel good. While my work keeps me busy, and tapped in with the movers and shakers, my social life has gone to shit. I have no friends at home, no network of people on the up and up that I can talk to or plan to do things with. It's a little disheartening, you would think with the community work that I do and having moved back home, people would be lining up to hang out with ya girl, but that is simply not the case.
I also don't have a love life, but I don't care about any of that. You know what I care about now more than ever, is getting some fat checks in my name. I want to see my businesses flourish and everything that I've invested in be returned to me 100-fold. I don't care if another soul in Halifax County, NC calls me to hang out ever again, however being a millionaire in Halifax county is something I don't want to let go of.
I been reading about manifesting, and having my cards read to make sure I'm on the right path, but you know who gives that blessed assurance, its the good Lord up above, the holy trinity, father, son, and holy ghost. Solid rock I stand that gives me confidence in saying I can be a millionaire not because I'm so smart and I do everything right and can't nobody tell me nothing, its because Christ lives on the inside of me and causes my dreams to come true. I mean I have tried it all, dream boards, tarot readings, but what never fails is God's word, I'm actually depending on his word to bring me through a situation right now.
You wanna know something else I hate, social media! People flex the most on the internet with very little to show for anything in real life, I find it one of the most confusing things I've ever encountered. The way people use language to hype themselves up is hilarious to me and very sad. Front about relationships and material bullshit that means nothing at the end of the day, just to put on for people that you don't even like, or that you don't even acknowledge of the internet.
I know that God is a redeemer, I believe he'll prepare a place before me in the presence of my enemies. I know God is a way maker, I know he'll solve my problems, I also know he gave me Isaiah 54 when I was in a dark place just to remind me that I am never forsaken and he would not let me be put to shame, that whatever he set in my heart to accomplish he will see out his work in my til the very end. and for that promise I am grateful.
And when I become the major employer of Halifax County through my Hemp company, I won't use my power to exploit anyone, but to encourage and uplift. Pay a decent wage and create work that the community can be proud of, Now I just need to know what to do next.
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